Feedback Loop [short story]

“FEEDBACK LOOP”

[short story] by Gen Thalz

Aux Send Line/In

4 Tape Cue EQ

3.5mm mono LPF 95%

*Alaala

“Hon, honey! Nakikinig ka ba? Kanina pa ko nagkukwento di ka man lang kumikibo.”, sita ng misis sa kanyang mister na nagmamaneho sa highway. “Ha? Eh, sori. Parang nangyari na ‘to?”, nagulat at nagtatakang tugon ng mister. “Talagang nangyari na ‘to dahil araw-araw tayo dumadaan dito! Pinagsasabi mo…”, imbyernang sagot ni misis. “Hindi pramis.”, sagot ulit ni mister, di na kumibo ang babae tumanaw na lang sa daan at sandali silang nanahimik.

Maya-maya. “Hon, ano ba nangyayari sayo? Kanina pa kita pinagmamasdan parang di ka mapakali, wala ka sa sarili baka mabangga tayo niyan. Gusto mo ako na magmaneho?”, usisa ni misis. “Ha? Hindi, ano. Parang bigla lang sumama pakiramdam ko, para kong lalagnatin”, paliwanag ni mister sabay himas sa batok. Nagalala naman bigla si misis at agad nitong hinipo ang noo at leeg ng mister kung mainit ba, “Wala ka naman lagnat, ano gusto mo hon? Tubig?”. “Ok lang ako hon, don’t worry. Parang may naalala lang ako na di ko alam kung ano…”, “Ha?”, “Pakiramdam ko may dapat akong gawin at baguhin pero di ko maisip kung ano ba yun, alam mo yung ganung pakiramdam?”.

Lalung nagalala ang misis, “May problema ba hon? Sabihin mo sakin, sa work ba? Baka stress ka… May nagawa ba ko? Anong gusto mong gawin ko hon?”, malambing na pagtatanong nito. “Hindi hon wala, bigla ko lang naramdaman ngayon ‘to. Siguro dahil ‘to sa panaginip ko kagabi na may tinutuklas daw ako kasi gusto ko daw mabago sitwasyon ko doon sa panaginip, tapos ang lungkot-lungkot ng pakiramdam…”, salaysay ng mister. “Bakit hon ano daw yung sitwasyon mo?”, “Hindi daw maayos eh, magulo.”, “Eh ano naman daw yung tinutuklas mo?”. Bago makasagot ang mister ay hui na ang lahat, hindi na niya nagawang makakabig pakaliwa at tuluyan silang bumangga sa trak na nasa harapan nila, hindi kumagat ang preno. Napasigaw na lang ang misis, “HOOOOOOOON!!!”

*Panaginip

Saktong 3:30 ng hapon, uwian na. Agad na nagsitayuan ang mga estudyante nang marinig ang “Class dismiss” sa kanilang maestra. “Ano Ter sama ka ba?”, “Kayo na lang tol, next time na lang ako…”, matamlay na sagot nito. “Sige tol, ‘kaw bahala… Oy, tara na! Intay!”.

Hapong-hapo na naglakad pauwi magisa ang trese anyos na si Dexter. Mabigat na may halong lumbay ang kanyang pakiramdam na hindi naman niya maintindihan kung bakit. Tahimik siyang naglalakad, nakayuko, deretso, walang lingon-lingon hangang sa makabanga ang isang mama. “Sori po.”, malumay niyang pasintabi habang nakayuko pa din at tutuloy sa paglakad nang bigla siyang hinawakan ng mama sa balikat. Nagkatinginan sila, bahagyang nagulat si Dexter na parang kinikilala ang mama. Ngumiti ang mama at nagsabi, “Mangarap ka, habang maaga pa isipin mo na kung ano ang gusto mo.”, saka ito umalis. Sandaling natulala si Dexter, nawirduhan, “Pamilyar sakin ang mga matang iyon, saan ko ba siya nakita?!”.

“Sabi ko na e! Hindi ako maaaring magkamali! Siya nga ‘yung mamang lagi kong napapanaginipan na umiiyak!", bulong niya sa sarili. "Mama hintay!”, hinabol ni Dexter ang mama subalit bigla naman itong nawala nang di niya naapuhap kung saan ito dumaan o nagpunta.

*Ang Nakaraan…

“Out of Body, Try Number 23. This time magagawa ko na ‘to, hindi pwedeng hindi! Focus. Focus. Focus… ”, bubulong-bulong na kinukumbinsi ng lalaki ang sarili habang inaayos ang manipis na kutson sa sahig. Matapos nun, pinatay niya ang ilaw at sinindihan isa-isa ang siyam na kandila at ilang pirasong insenso. Bahagyang nagliwanag sa silid at unti-unting nangamoy bulaklak ang paligid.

Isang malamyos, banayad, at atmospheric na musika ang tumugtog nang magsalang ng plaka sa kanyang 2^nd hand vinyl record player ang lalaki. Lumagok siya sa isang basong tubig, humiga at saka pumikit. Pinapakiramdaman ang paghinga na para bang may ritmo itong sinusundan hanggang sa siya ay makaramdam ng kakaibang vibration mula sa kanyang balakang.

6.     

6.          6. Sa isang tahimik na lugar humiga, ituon ang atensyon sa pag inhale-exhale.

7.       7. I-visualize mabuti ang taon at kung saan.

8.       8. Concentrate, ‘wag matakot.

Sa makailang beses na niyang sinusubukan ito, ay gamay na niya ang mga dapat gawin sa 17 out of body guidelines na kanyang sinulat at idinikit sa pader upang hindi niya ito malimutan.

Sound Interpretation: Paris

http://h-a-z-e.org/archives/4266#.VfPiapfeMnx

Check out this Haze Netlabel new record compilation sound interpretation, our track Lustre Ovuler is included in this album. Click on the link above to view the whole tracklist and its digital in-lay. Thank you...ü

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The Numbers Stations [industrial techno|noise-glitch|minimal] ~ Gen Thalz

*This is an acousmatic techno track. All sampled sounds is from different mysterious Numbers Stations on radio and internet. Sound collage/concoction into something minimally aggressive-harsh-noisy and glitchy with a feel of lo-fi industrial rustiness and dirtiness.

Bandcamp download: http://genthalz03.bandcamp.com/track/the-numbers-stations

Like us on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/genthalzspace

Credits:
released 24 August 2015

Track: The Numbers Stations
Creator: Gen Thalz
Genre: Electronic
Style: industrial techno, noise, glitch, minimal
Year: 2015
Type: single release

_Special Thanks to:
The Lincolnshire Poacher
The Swedish Rhapsody
UVB-76 (The Buzzer)
Webdriver Torso

Re-sample, mixed, and arrange by Gen Thalz
Produced by Marlon B. Zoleta

*The video clip is from AT&T archives - Telephone Switchboard (Old and New), from the 1920's onward. We just cut and select a few scenes and speed it up a little bit to sync and match the timing of our audio. We immediately like and chose this AT&T video clip for this track because it really (obviously) has the feel and vibes of the sound per se.  We also like the lo-fi look of it and the patching of cables and dialing on those massive machines.

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Gen Thalz ~ catacombs [acousmatic|image to sound}soundscape]

*This is our entry for the Sound Interpretation Dedication to Paris posted on Experimental Music (group). We've never been to Paris that's why we used the medium from where we got some basic info and perceptions about this city, and that is:

- a mini tour guide video on Paris
- two photos of Louvre Pryramid during night and

*We then transformed these video and photos into audio files as our “raw sounds” which is kind a glitchy, harsh and noisy at first. Next, by doing some sonic alchemy and aural sorcery (naks!) ;), we mold these raw sounds into what we feel about this City of Lights - very serene, modern yet classical, seductive and secretive. And like all the cities in the world, we knew Paris also have a dark side, flaws, and haunting memories like the catacombs beneath it. With these mindset, we created this soundscape.

Track: Catacombs
Genre: Electronic
Style: ambient, drone, minimal
Year:2015

*The video is an actual found footage of a man lost in this massive Catacombs of Paris. We manipulate it in some degree just to satisfied our impulsive needs of "What if?".

We hope you enjoy it as we enjoy the process. Thank you... :)

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An Equation [spectrogram/mono channel] ~ Gen Thalz

*Found a simple way to do the Aphex Twin's tricks of embedding an image on spectrogram of an audio. Maybe we're a little too late for this but the process is still fun and interesting, here's our take in mono channel... ;)

Track: An Equation
Genre: Electronic
Style: abstract/noise/minimalism
Year: 2015

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UNPLUGGED (visual poetry)...ü

Nodes of Disposition (The Further)

Arteries of Temperament

[sound.sculpture|readymades]

*some of our string instruments.ü

- prepared, arranged, photographed, and remixed by Gen Thalz

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PAPER CUT-OUTS d[□_□]b

Ratio Oms 

[Glitch Paper Cut-Outs]

model = Ms. Tori Amos :)

monomaniac

[Abstract Paper Cut-Outs]

Materials:

- Old Music Magazine

- Bond Paper

- Colored Paper

- Scissors

- Cutter

- Scotch Tape (clear)

*our take for the Paper Cut-Outs, popularized by Henri Matisse d[●_●]b